Song: Today by Joe Buchmann

People seem to want
Everything that they don't have
Always looking for tomorrow
While they're living in the past
Forget about the things they've got
Forget about today
And everything it took to get it
Throw it all away
Cause it's just around the corner where
The grass is always green
On the other side that promises
To give you everything

So keep riding on this highway
On the promise of tomorrow
Searching for a rainbow
'Til you find a pot of gold
'Cause that's when everything
Will be ok and you will know
That everything is always better
Tomorrow

Memories come back again
Flashing through your mind
Now you're longing for the days
That you remembered how to smile
Another place and time
Where life's a sunny day
If you could just get back to that
Then all of this would fade away
And what's in store for you
Might not be that bad
Maybe what tomorrow brings
Is the best you ever had

So keep riding on this highway
On the promise of tomorrow
Searching for a rainbow
'Til you find a pot of gold
'Cause that's when everything
Will be ok and you will know
That everything is always better
Tomorrow

Another night alone
A drink is in your hand
Staring at the bottom
Of the bottle that you had
Then suddenly you see
And everything is clear
All the things you have right now
Are the reasons that you're here
Family and friends
A job that gives you pay
A house a car and kids
That love you every single day

So keep riding on this highway
And live your life today
Cause tomorrow's not a promise
And it might just slip away
Forget about a thousand struggles
All along the way
Cause all you need is in your hands
You will always have today

A Whole Year?!!

Wow! I just realized that an entire year has gone by and this blog has been completely neglected. That totally sucks since this has been a really great year with so much good stuff to write about. I guess I'm going to have to recap and try to remember as much as I can =P Then maybe in 2011 I'll actually keep this thing up to date! So I think what I'm going to do is just post several different topics over the next few days so that this one doesn't turn into a novel. lol.

Court.....again

Today was another day in court, reminding me how burned out I am on going to that place. Walking through those metal detectors, the not-so-fresh courthouse smell, and just the general feeling of unpleasantness that hangs in the air there.

Fortunatley though, I felt like today went in a positive direction. We were able to meet with the kids' Minors' Counsel' and have a quite lengthy discussion. I feel like she is going to be the one to finaly step in and set things right. Hopefully this will be the case. All in all though, I came out of there with a good feeling of moving forward.

Please keep the kids and I in your thoughts and prayers. We'll make it through this yet =)

Song: Hate by Joe Buchmann

(Style: Alternative Rock)

It's not what I do
But what you put me through
Has got me feeling something I don't like
'Cause now I'm hating you

You take
Everything inside
Everything that I've ever known
In my fucking life

***** *****
Chorus:
I just wanna get away from you
Take back everything that's mine
Wanna get back to who I am
Don't know if I can cross that line
Pray to God to make you see
Turn around and walk away
When you go just take with you
What you're making me feel, this...hate
***** ****

As I draw another breath to live
Head down I close my eyes
Feel the sands of my hourglass fall
And I watch you waste my life

I make it through another day
Uphill as I battle through
Swallow hard and I hide the pain
Doesn't mean a thing to you

You're blind to who you're hurting now
And how you change the path they take
Little minds that just can't fight
I hear you laugh as you watch them break

I can't take it for another day
Spread my wings and let them fly
'Cause it's more than just the world to me
To see them light up and see them smile

***** *****
Now I just wanna get away from you
Take back everything that's mine
Wanna get back to who I am
Don't know if I can cross that line
Pray to God to make you see
Turn around and walk away
When you go just take with you
What you're making me feel, this...hate
***** *****

(soft - almost spoken. emphasis on last words every other line)
Instead of wings
You'll be diggin' now
You're own grave
While you're fallin' down
Get to the bottom
Maybe then you'll see
Everything
That you lost in me
'Cause now I'm done
Hearing all your lies
Already gone
Leaving you behind......

***** *****
Now....I'm getting so far away from you
Taking back everything that's mine
Wanna get back to who I am
Now I see that I can cross that line
Pray to God someday you'll see
Turn around keep walking away
Now you're gone just keep with you
What I no longer need, this...hate
***** *****

Humor: Web Design

For web people, this is kind of funny =P